baby mama drama

pretty much from the start of my pregnancy there was "drama" :)

i should of known i was pregnant with a girl! 

so, i found out i was preggo and scheduled a visit to the doc, to make a long story short i didn't know exactly how far a long i was so they did blood work and wanted to do an ultrasound. i got my blood test results back and they called me and said my progesterone levels were low. the same day i got an ultrasound, where the technician showed me the babes heartbeat. i was so excited to see that little "blinking light" in the middle of a tiny bean! :) i had never gotten an ultrasound that early before, but i thought it was weird that she didn't say "everything looks great" like they always had in the past with the boys! as soon as i got home, a nurse called me and said they had found a blood clot where the baby implanted. i was so freaked out. she did said it wasn't normal, but also that it wasn't uncommon. they put me on  "pelvic rest" and said not to lift anything over 10 pounds. she also wanted me to come in to get progesterone shots because of the low progesterone levels. with the boys, my pregnancies had been so worry free! 

seeing our little bean for the first time

i was debating if i should even do the shots because i like to go the more natural route and i had also never heard of anyone getting progesterone shots before. i looked them up online and decided to go ahead with them. the only side affect i found was that you have "vivid dreams" and can get super tired, but being a mom of two crazy boys and being pregnant in general  i knew that was going to happen anyway! i also had to take progesterone supplements 2 times a day until i was 12 weeks. the nurse told me the supplements would be $135, when i went to pay they were $305. this little girl was spending her daddy's money right away!! :)

i went in for the shots 3 days apart from each other  one in each hip. i guess she said the shots were progesterone and oil. it hurt like heck going in. she said i would be sore for up to a few days and i was definitely tender. i had to lay on my back or belly while sleeping because i was so sore. in the midst of this, i told my fam i was preggo and a few friends but didn't tell too many about what was going on. the last thing you need is to tell someone about what's going on then hear them say, "i knew this one person who....." 

let me back track, i am usually a person that shouts from the mountain tops the day i get a positive test, "HEY WORLD, I'M HAVING A BABY!!" haha. but i was in fear that something was going to happen. a few months before this pregnancy,  i was 2 weeks late on my cycle and took a pregnancy test while out with a friend. i saw a faint positive. i went home and told shawn, and the next morning i started bleeding. i called the doc right away and they said occasionally it's normal to bleed for some women. i went in for blood work and they called me back and confirmed my pregnancy. they had me go back 3 days later and called me and said my levels had only took a small dip and that i should go back again in a week. longest week ever, esp, not knowing whats going on! after that week they said there was a huge decline in my levels and that i had miscarried for sure. i had really mixed feelings about it! i felt like i didn't have too much time to celebrate before i started bleeding.i was definitely sad , especially  because i was thinking "what if this was my chance to have my girl?"  it had all happened so quick, it didn't really have time to sink in. i found myself thinking about it as other friends got pregnant, then when they hit "milestones" or were finding out the sex of their  baby, i was thinking "we would be finding out next week". i can't say that i even thought about it a lot, just every so often. this whole situation made shawn kinda scared to have another babe. he was super quiet during that whole week and really didn't say much. he said he didn't want that to happen again and was concerned for me too! 

ok, so all that, to say when i found out i was pregnant with Capri, i didn't tell too many people, i didn't post about it on facebook, i didn't shout to the world like i usually do.  then all of the sudden i was sitting at home and thought "why am i waiting for something bad to happen?!?! i am expecting the best. i'm having this baby and i'm just so excited!" 

 i took this pic a few minutes later and posted it on fb and told everyone i knew!  this was at 7 weeks! yes, that's a lot earlier than most do it, but for me that was almost a month later than i usually did! haha  also, it was me telling myself (if that makes sense) "we are going to have an awesome, healthy pregnancy!" i love to celebrate my babies and pregnancies as long as possible! i know so many people wait till the 2nd trimester to tell everyone, but to me...why wait?!?! believe the best! some people are just more private people, and everyone has their reasons for waiting, but for the most part i hear women say "we just wanted to make sure we were out of the woods!"  

don't be waiting around for bad news! 

hey world, I'M PREGNANT 

now, ill say this, i know their have been many times when people did tell their news and they ended up miscarrying  i think when that happens, you can really be there for other women that are going through the same thing. i don't know why that has happened to people, but don't let previous circumstances put you in fear for your new pregnancy. start thanking God for your next pregnancy and that it will be a healthy one! 

 we got some news  on our second ultrasound at 12 weeks. another opportunity came along to exercise our faith and to be positive ! :) 

next post... knowing God always comes though