my baby blue

my little hunter lewis will be 5 on april 1st! it is seriously so stinkin' crazy how fast time has gone by! my parents always told me "wait till you grow up, time goes by so fast" and it really does when you can see time go by in your kids! to think i was in the hospital with him almost 5 years ago is just nuts!

i am SO bummbed that i don't have pics of hunter and i on my computer from when i had him in the hospital. my hubby "misplaced" the external hard drive that all of our pics are on from my old computer! ahhh! it makes me so sad!

ok, so i am writing this to celebrate his birthday....

woohoo, happy birthday hunter.

but also to write about my first weeks as a new mom. 

first off, i loved being preggo so much! i literally didn't get sick once my whole pregnancy. it was amazing. so since that was oh so amazing, i thought motherhood would be too!

i was induced on march 31st at 8 pm . four days overdue. i wasn't dilated at all, wasn't having contractions, but my fluid was low. 

this was the 4d ultrasound we got the day before he was born

i love this so much

i texted/called all my family and friends and they all met me at the hospital, i think there were at least 20 people at the hospital by 10pm, i remember my brothers bringing their friends from their b-ball team, haha, all my sweet friends were there, my family, it was really a lot of fun and my labor was going really smooth, especially after my epidural!!!! that was  the most amazing thing on earth!!!!!! i can not put enough exclamation points after that!

ok, so i have this adorable little babe within 8 hours from the time we checked in the hospital,

he was born at 4 am on the dot 

april 1, 2008

6 pounds 14 ounces 

21 1/2 inches long

 i think everything is going to be even more amazing from here on out....

well, my epidural eventually wore off and i could feel some major pain.  i cant take pills but tried to choke down a pain pill in yogurt ,jello, crushed up , then in pudding but kept gagging, for some reason they didn't have liquid tylenol, so the pain continued, i hadn't slept since the night before because i had visitors the whole time i was in labor, i'm nursing this babe (which was one of the hardest things i have ever done in my life, which will be a post for another day), and  the thought of circumcision for  hunter made me cry....all day long!!! 

so here i am, boobs sore, baby making parts sore, crying, trying to nurse him, in between having a ton of visitors and crying, fun times!

have you ever heard the phrase "cry me a river"...i could of done that within the next few weeks!

i cried and cried....and cried. then would go to sleep and wake up in the middle of the night and cry....then cry, you get the point! i cried non-stop for the first two weeks of hunter's life and then would cry more because i didn't know why i was crying! i would stop then cry more because i felt like the worst mom ever for crying, haha!

a picture of a picture

this was when hunter was a week old

no one ever told me that "crying" was some what normal! i had never heard of anyone doing that before! the only person that knew i  was so emotional  was shawn. i told him not to tell anyone because i was so embarrassed! i didn't even tell my mom! i remember people would bring us dinner, i put a happy face on for them and just say i was tired, then as soon as they walked out of the door, and i mean the second they walked out, the door closed i would lock it and cry! i felt so bad for my sweet hubby! he didn't even know what to do!! i didn't know what i wanted him to do! so he would just hold me! :)

after about a week, i was at my mom's and asked her if she ever cried after she had any of us. she said "no, why hunny? do you?" and then i started balling!!!! she called a nurse friend of hers and told her about my little situation! the nurse told her to make sure i was eating protein and getting some sleep! sleep?! ahhh, what was that?! i was nursing hunter morning, noon and night, and not eating because i didn't have the energy {the plus side to that is i lost all my baby weight the first two weeks} my mom then came and spent the night with us and got up with hunter and would make me plates of food and make me eat them! she and shawn were my lifesavers. shawn was up every single night with hunter and i at least for the first month to help me {and to hand me tissues}

thankfully the  "baby blues" only lasted 2 weeks! it was the longest two weeks of my life! but you know how crazy a mama can be, i would love to go back to when he was a tiny babe and hold him in my arms again. i guess maybe i'd pick when he was a month old or older! 

{wink}

this probably isn't the happy birthday post you were thinking it would be for hunter! but that was my reality the first two weeks of his life! thank God everything has been smooth sailing after that!

 he is the sweetest, funniest, craziest little boy ever.

 love my baby boy so much!

HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY HUNTER LEWIS HERSHBERGER!